I feel delighted to know that duniasantri.co is entering its 3rd anniversary in 2022. As a santri who has asked for guidance, I am so grateful. Because many things have been given by duniasantri.co that saved me at the right time (by Allah’s permission and help).
I’ve been writing poetry more since I graduated college, and I’m less trained to write short stories and opinions. Even though there were such assignments in college, the desire to be skilled at writing was lacking, plus there was very little information and knowledge.
My urge to write is actually more of an “only (writing)” job that I can do. I feel like I don’t really feel like working other than writing. I have experienced this since I became an Indonesian teacher at one of the junior high schools in my village. Of course, teaching science is a noble activity. However, I feel inappropriate as a teacher, and my college base is not from education.
Slowly, my anxiety deepened. I seem to have lost hope of what and how to do it. I try to prove myself by continuing to write and send it to the mass media, both newspapers and online websites. At first, all this was fruitless. I waited while continuing to hone my skills, reading books, saving to buy books, and thinking about every moment in language. Everything really feels long and quite tormenting me.